2010.. This is 24 year old me! 🙂 If I could re-live my 20s again and start over I would. I accomplished a lot, but I felt like I wasted time focusing on things/people that were less important. See, in your 20s, you’re suppose to be enjoying life and be stress free. You’re suppose to be planning the future, living in the present and learning/growing from the past.
Sure, I accomplished a lot in my 20s, but I wasn’t really living. I felt I would have been way ahead in my 20s had I not let things distract me. At this age, I had finally moved on from my 2005 sexual assault that occured in college at the age of 18. I was also 2 years free of self abuse.
I was happy in this photo because I was with my family, but behind this smile I was going home to in an unhealthy relationship. An unstable relationship where I was being taken for granted; giving my all for so little and putting myself last. I was half way into loving myself again, but little did I know I needed space and time to work on me. I needed to know what self worth meant along side of self love.
In order to do that, I needed balance after full recovery from my past. I didn’t start going in full effect of my self love journey until 2012. I had to end that unhealthy relationship to recover, build self love and understand self worth. After following that, I become a better version of myself; it is who I became today.
So before you enter into a new relationship or anything in 2020, make sure you have had enough time to work on you. It took me 7-9 years to be this much in love with myself. I have the strength of Wonder Woman! (*grabs super hero cape and soars into the air!🦸♀️)
Women always ask me how do I manage self love and confidence. Girl, it took me some years! 🙂 Lol I was NEVER EVER as confident as I am today. I grew up as a energetic child always having fun and competing in pageants, school plays and played softball. I was a creative child who always received support from my family so that is where the root of my confidence started. This is why it’s important to support and encourage children so they can grow up always having a passion to acheive.
In junior high school, I would always get bullied and it would lower some of my confidence. This is why it’s important to be around positive or friendly people.
My REAL self love journey started in 2012 after surviving a 2005 sexual assault incident while in college; which would lead to self abuse in my early 20s. Although I would accomplish so many great things, it would steal so much of the confidence I grew up with. I would think it was impossiable to get it all back. So this is what I did. It took me 7 full years to recover from mental pain and then another 7 years to re build my self love. It took me 14 years to get to where I am today. :O
I am thankful that I am also able to inspire other women and preach about the importance of loving yourself and knowing yourself. Just bc you say someone is beautiful and you might be hating on them, you don’t know their story. lol You don’t know what they went through. I believe some of the greatest people are the ones that survived the storms and did amazing things afterwards. Never let your trials defeat you. I challenge you to focus on repairing from your pain and then start a self love journey. ❤ Not everyone is perfect. Trust 💯 If I can do it, you can do it. -ReNita XOXO 💋
I like making women feel good about their appearance and being helpful to uplift their confidence. I feel if we do this, maybe the world will be free of haters because we’ll be inspiring each other when we help each other. Maybe I’m just too nice. 🤷♀️ I’ve never had any interest in being a hater or putting other women down. I would often wonder if that meant I was not normal lol I’m always admiring or being motivated by women that are doing great things or looking amazing.
I was telling a very sweet woman how I lost weight because she couldn’t believe I was over 200lbs last year. Yesterday, this cashier in WalMart wanted to know how I defined my eyebrows. I was holding up the line going into detail to show her how I do my brows and what I use. They were both very thankful for the information I gave them.
Never hold back from educating other queens on health and beauty, they may not know much of it or afraid to ask. Everyone deserves to look and feel beautiful. No woman shouldn’t feel insecure about her appearance. Take care of yourself 100% and help another queen blossom.